Who's Who

Since being back on cm i have gotten messages and started conversations with several interesting men.

i am very curious about three.

M.
Lives in CT, but that's not too far away.
Have had a great im conversation with him.

ST.
i have his phone number.
Debating calling tonight

D.
i gave him my im.
i hope we chat soon.

The newest cast of characters.
i can't wait to see what happens next.

ANOTHER??

Is this too much now???!!!
Third post in a matter of minutes....

i am back on cm...right now in fact.

i am nervous jumping back into the deep end.
Without swimmies or other water rescue devices.

Ah well...swim or sink...so...swim it is.

CANNON BALL!!!!

Jumbled

It's what i've been.
i hate it.

All over the place.
No focus.
No anchor.

A lot of this has to do with S.

i've had my questions and doubts about him.
Maybe i've ignored that inner voice.
But i thought there was something good to be had there.

i was wrong.

i won't say anymore about him.
he doesn't deserve it.

Something interesting has been happening.
Thoughts of Him.
More often.
It was His birthday.
i stopped myself from sending him an email.
Do you know that even if you delete someone from your contacts the address stays there?
Yea, i found that out when i typed his in.

i didn't send it.
The first anniversary of our first meeting is coming up.
i passed the hotel recently.
i had a very physical reaction.
An unwelcome one.
i need to move past.

So.
Where to go from here.
Blogging more.
Going back to collarme.
Maybe fetlife.
The last one i am unsure of.

i know what i need.
i know what i crave.
i just seem to have an issue finding it and holding on.

Quick follow up

Well.
Back on collarme.
Have had one very good conversation. And a the prospect of another one with someone else.
Two out of a slew of messages.
Sure there were the whack-o's and male subs...no, thanks anyway...
Not bad for being back on for an hour.
I wonder what tomorrow will bring.
Nighty!

Collarme

That is where i met Him.
Since then i have kept my profile hidden.
i had no interest in talking with or meeting anyone else.
i found my Dom.
Or so i thought.
i am having doubts, big time.
Not hearing from Him makes it worse.
i just updated my profile. my journal. my likes. my curiosities
i have kept it hidden...for now.
It is up to Him.
Come tomorrow night, i will know one way or the other.
Funny side note...definitely not funny "haha"...just funny "huh"...Today is our anniversary.
8 months.
huh.