Not too much

So. What's been happening here?
As post title says...not too much.
Or has there?

The unemployment search is on.
Applying for unemployment. Thank God it's online.
Resumes being emailed, research being done.
i am not going to get too high or too low with this process.

Went to a kick ass concert last night.
My ass and face were rocked off...rock concert you ask? Nope. Country.
My head is still ringing and filled with great music i can not stop singing.

Things with T are at a stand still.
He is out of the country.
Hoping when he is back things heat up.

Things with O. Hmm.
Spent the day with him.
Oh such a great time.

Things with S.
Sigh.
i still don't know.
We text.
He orders.
He commands.
i follow.
Maybe we will be in touching range again. Soon.
i hope.

i need one of these guys to take a stand.
What do they want.
They know where i stand.
i need a full relationship.
D/s, BDSM and vanilla.
Am i asking a lot?

Goings on

Work was fun on Monday.
Tiring, long day, but it was fun finally being a productive member of society again.
And earning a paycheck.
Bonus.
i am messaging the same man from Fetlife...fun, flirty, naughty.
Do i have guilt, considering i am "with" Him...i should, shouldn't i?
i know i am being a bad submissive...talking to a man, another Dom, without Him knowing.
Strangely, i don't have guilt.
Something is missing with Him and i.
Spending time together, communicating.
Important things.
Anyway...i have some new toys coming.
Clamps. Dildos, plugs...and some sort of ball thing that goes up my pussy.
Not ben wa balls...those scare me. How on earth do they come out?
No, these have a cord to pull them out.
Very intrigued.
i am so looking forward to playing.