Quandry

i have learned from past mistakes.
Don't assume.
That was a big one for me.
If i didn't hear from someone for a few days, i would assume the worst and send an email saying "thanks for the fun, guess it's at an end, see ya."
i was correct in my assumptions, maybe 30% of the time. The others i would get an email back saying pretty much, ok, but that was your choice.
i am struggling now.
i NEED communication (wow is that a repeated theme on this blog so far or what??!!).
He is not taking care of his submissive.
He is not taking care of the heart, mind and soul that i placed in his care.
i have not heard from Him since Wednesday. When i do, it's a few sentences in an email.
What do i think? What do i do? What do i write? Do i write??
i do not want to go another week with these thoughts.
i don't want to go another day.
Very torn. i keep starting an email, but stop myself and delete.
i don't want to repeat past mistakes, but i need something. i need either an explanation or a good bye.
As much as i care about Him, i will be good with either.