So Close, Yet So Far

It's been a hard 2013.

Too many doctors.
Too little fun.

I am recovering from surgery.
Almost 9 weeks now.
Slow and steady recovery
Has me antsy and frustrated.
Epically frustrating since I can't play.

But I shouldn't complain.
The pre surgery pain is gone.
Going to therapy to regain motion.
Hope soon to work on strength.

The rest of my family have see too many hospital visits as well.
It is rough witnessing parents start to decline.
Thankfully my mother is digging in her heels and fighting.

NEW CAST OF CHARACTERS:

JJ
My forever Master?
Likely no.
Could he be? Yes. But he's not ready for something that following his divorce.
My forever best friend. Yes.
We have nearly everything in common.
Spending time with him is fun, relaxing.
We both need that friendship.
Sex?
Yes.
Great sex. Oh yes.

EmailDom (ED)
Have not met yet.
Hope to.
Our emails and online interaction are promising.

S
A lot of baggage.
I love making him laugh.
Lives a good distance away.

D
Would love to be able to meet him.
Lives an even greater distance away.

T
Known the longest.
Mostly yahoo contact.
Have spoken on the phone a few times.
Lives in my town.
He's yummy.
The things he wants to do to me make me shivery.

D
Met for lunch two weeks ago.
He confuses me.
I can't wrap my brain around it yet.
Even now, trying to type it out...I can't.

M
Pops in ever now and then.
I could consider him a serious choice.
But won't until he stops disappearing on me.

I really should whittle down this lineup.

That's where I am.
Recovering.
Moving.
Considering.

Vent. Rant. Release.

To blog more, or ever.

That's what I wanted.

Finally my mind is so jam packed that I need to let off the steam.

Most is not of a kinky, D/s subject. Too little of it is actually.

I am on and off cm.

I have a profile up, but haven't visited it. I've actually ignored it.

Why?

J.

He is my best friend. We have some kink.

Not the kind I need. Not a commanding Dom.
But he is what I need in ever other aspect.

Right now, we are having fun. Enjoying each others company.

What comes of it...for either of us, I don't know. And I am fine with that.

For now.

NON D/s segment.
I need to get this out of my brain before it comes out of my mouth.
It is safe here. Doesn't harm the people I want to keep from hearing it...

There is a couple in New england right now who are evil.

I believe in good. Evil. God. Karma.

You both are despicable.

You will get what you have coming to you.

I say from time to time that I don't hate anyone, except terrorists...well, I can amend that.

I hate you both. You're in company with terrorists. Congrats.
I will not dwell on it. It will not consume me. Especially since I have let it go from my thoughts.

Just know that if you both were on fire and I had a glass of water...I would drink it.